We may not reach the other side of the bank. We sing probably everyday, with deepest devotion and hope, bhavasagara tarane nauka, but it may not change anything. We might still sink in the ocean of bhava, samsara. So what does one do? Does one give up hope, and go back to the freefall into samsara…into objects and their limited pleasures?
If one gives up the ideal of another dimension, then there is only the limitedness of the body, the limitedness of the existential pleasures. There is very little scope for anything else to come in.
On the other hand, the acausal cannot be wished for, cannot be created, cannot be heard, read, contemplated upon, comprehended …etc etc. It only goes in the negative direction. But that is what we strive for. We want the grace of the acausal. “GRACE”. This is the word most used by the Dayananda clan…Anugraha or Grace. What the others would call the quantum leap, the unexpected, the stroke of lightening…
We only prepare ourselves to receive this grace. If it doesn’t come, have we lived in vain? Have we squandered away a life in a meaningless search? I am not sure if I could freefall back into the limited pleasures of samsara. Also, how do i falsify the pleasures of surrender, of gratitude, of contentment, of clarity, of sound judgement, of tolerance, of peace? Aren’t these the merits of a life of contemplation? Can we just write them off as useless, when the final goal of Moksha is not reached?
I would rather die trying, than go back to the world of limited pleasures. I would rather believe in Oneness and derive from it’s strength, than live a life which dissipates it’s energy in the appreciation of differentiation. How clearly the Kathaupanishad states, “Mrtyoho Mrtyur Aapnoti, Yah iva naneva pashyathi”